My meager possessions have been gathered, hoping that the scarce amount aids my focus. The road set upon circles the globe, but cannot be traveled directly. I seek that which cannot be inherited or purchased. However, to obtain it has a cost, I must humbly give the whole of myself; praying that true understanding may reach me. While realizing short cuts only lead to greater confusion; and without a guide this journey is limited to the shores of my own understanding. Raised tall above every worry is the fact that there is no destination to this journey. I may settle some place to reside, but my mind will adventure on.
I’ve missed so many days that I’m going to start over. I want to write at least 1 post every day.
In the process of finding a future profession I am often left wandering. As a child I said I wanted to be a lawyer, as a teen I wanted to be a professional athlete. In young adulthood I’ve gravitated towards liberals arts. Now I have narrowed that down to writing. I have gave none of those topics my all, so I deserved none of the rewards. I want to change that with writing; I have to change that so I can let it become my profession.
On a totally different topic; I went to Second City Improv theater yesterday. The Chicago based organization that is comedic start for people such as Tina Fey, Steve Carrel, Steve Colbert and many many more.
Something about live theater is so cool.
I got some disappointing news today. I didn’t get a job that I had applied for. This isn’t distressing in itself, I am just really attached to this organization. Getting this job would have been having my cake and eating it too. So I was pretty bummed out for a while. However, at the end of the day I have to use it as motivation. Motivation to make myself invaluable, so I can chose where I want to go.
Then came the good; I began to follow through on what might become the biggest commitment in my life. It’s so exciting, whiling being daunting as well. The sheer finality of this decision is worrisome. I have faith in ALLAH(swt).
I have become so attached to someone, yet I have no written place in her life; nor her in mine. The path we have set ourselves upon will change that. Until that happens a special kind of patience must be maintained. A patience that is rooted in obedience to ALLAH(GOD). In this time of patience, the most important things are prayer, communication, and planning. When all three are put into practice it breeds special kind of bond. One that can flourish in the future, due to its principled past. I can only pray that my efforts live up to my intentions. May ALLAH(swt) be gentle with us.
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If I were to meet him I would be:
humbled by his generosity to the poor.
rendered speechless by his exquisite beauty.
motivated by his mere presence.
embraced by the closeness in which he holds his entire Ummah.
illuminated by his wisdom.
most importantly drawn closer to ALLAH (swt) by his message.
May peace and blessing be upon him.
I still feel all of this without meeting him, how bright his light shines. Peace and Blessing be on him.
Out of 13 days I have missed two posts, which isn’t bad.
Now I know how brother dave chappelle felt, having to make new creative pieces every day. Need I say “lol jk”, but there is something to be said for writing creatively everyday. Although, I could do a journal type thing, but that’s not what I’m going for here. I wanted to write small to middle size well written post everyday, posts that would evoke thought and emotion. Most important to me is that the content stay original and stay sincere to my personal beliefs. Peace :)
Some of my non-muslims co-workers don’t understand why I want to be married so young. “You’re only 23” they tell me, as if that gives me a right to be promiscuous. After telling me how much they like dating and meeting new women, I ask them a simple question; do you want to get married? First they respond with a definitive “nah man you crazy”, then their sentiment softens to a “well there was this one girl, but she hurt me”. They went on to explain, that they could see them selves getting married; but ultimately it seemed they were either too enticed by fleeting desires or they were to leery of being hurt by rejection and betrayal.
I found this interesting on 2 levels. 1, The negative connotation that modern society has viewed young people wanting to get married. Even more than that, the blatant encouragement by society to pursue such fleeting desires in the first place.
2, Even people who dont have a religious view on pre-marital relationships feel the need to have a defined union, a union that binds in a way that is unique to human beings. Companionship that is itself complete and lasting.
Hope you all enjoyed. Peace :)
I’ve written many things about love, and the feeling of love. In this post I want to stress the importance sacrifice, and the place I think it holds in love. When new love is found, sacrifice is required; and it is readily made as a homage to what you hope that love will grow into. That sacrifice is like investing early in a successful company, the dividends will pay off later. In the perfect world the sacrifice between both people would be equal. Sometimes one person may have to sacrifice early, while the other enjoys the new love without interference in their life. What has to be realized is that the you both are two parts of one whole, and the discomfort one of you feels the other should feel, and just the same, the pleasure and comfort that one feels the other should share. The devil and our ego plays against our intellects; especially when it comes to sacrifice. So being thoughtful in prayer allows one focus on ultimate truth, and inevitably pettiness falls from importance. We have to make sure we dont allow pettiness to build back up. So yea, this post ran a bit long. I hope it benefits someone, It has helped me to write it. :) Peace.